"The mind always seeks to deny the Now and to escape from it. In other words, the more you are identified with your mind, the more you suffer."
- Eckhart Tolle (via thecalminside)
I'm posting this Knowing it will go unnoticed.
I'm just in a total downer.
I don't Know what's happened and i don't Know why i feel so blue.
i guess thats the thing with Anxiety. It strikes at any Time and for no Apparent reason.
I just feel so ugly. And fat and stupid, and clueless and Scatter Brained and Boring.
i have so many people who tell me I'm neither of these things but i can't help but feel them.
I'm always so tired these days and i just can't be Bothered even trying to do my hair Nice or my make up cause it never seems to make me feel any Better.
I have so many insecurities and it seems they've just consumed me.
It feels Like everyone i Meet just Judges me and thinks I'm weird.
And so many people are overly Nice to me it just feels so fake. And i can never trust them.
i don't even Know why i felt the need to post this. I just needed to get it out and i don't want to put it on anyone in particular and make them feel Obliged to cheer me up. I just feel like such a loser.
I'm constantly forgetting things and I'm never Focused.
I just don't even Know.